Healing from regret

Some people meet their soul mates at first glance. Others are not so blessed to recognise that person, the one who makes your stomach turn, and your heart to flutter and make you feel like you are the only one, the most important person in this world. That you are the one they cannot be without, the one they cannot imagine not having in their lives. Sometimes you do meet that person but live gets in the way, people and circumstances happen. People get between you and you do not get the chance to grow a friendship that can lead to a relationship that can be something beautiful.

Then decisions are mad, wrong ones and some good ones. However, unfortunately the wrong decisions out way the good ones. You get so distracted form the path that you were meant to take. One thing leads to another, one choice after another, one mistake after another. You end up on a path a road that was never meant for you, that you should have never been on. A path less desired, a path filled with so many regrets, mistakes, but there is some blessings that came out of all the wrong decisions.

You look back and think where and how did it all go so wrong. How could I have been so blind, so foolish and looking back, you see through it all YHWH’s (God’s) hand over you, helping, guiding and protecting you. Finally, you think a new start a break from all the mistakes a fresh start.

A new beginning, but once again you find yourself standing at a crossroad. One leads you to your hearts desire the other one leads to a road that looks promising, good, filled with hope and good intentions.

Choices, always choices, which way to go, which road should you choose. You make a choice you choose the path that seems right to you, it looks like a good choice, it is filled with love and joy. The further and further you go down the road you look back and you find yourself once again having regret. The regret starts to get hold of you; once again, you chose the wrong path. The path that seemed good to you, is starting to make you angry, have self-hate, regret and is filled with hurt.

Forgiving and letting go of the wrongs you did and the wrongs causes to you. Trying so hard to forgive yourself for the bad choices, you have made. Feeling once again like a failure, begging for forgiveness for the wrongs you have done and the wrong choice you have made.

Thinking to yourself, asking YHWH (God), when will all this hurt go away, when will the healing come, when will the Beauty come from all of these Ashes. You make the choice to walk this road alone, with YHWH (God) by your side, because that is the best place to be. By His side at His feet.

Then you realize He is enough and the sun will shine again, one day at a time, one-step at a time. He is putting you back together, it may take a while but you will smile again. You will feel the sun kissing your cheeks again.

The road feels so long and alone, and you stumble and fall sometimes, but He is there for you, He will catch you. This time you do not want to get distracted again by what seems right.

He will show you, He will guide you and protect you. He will send His army of angles to protect you. If He is for you, who can be against you. And no weapon formed against you will prosper, and every tongue which rises against you in judgement you shall prove wrong, This is the inheritance of the servant of YHWH, and their righteousness for Him, this declares YHWH

Be save and true.
Shalom and Blessings

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